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♥ mY exTrA oRdinAry dAy~ ♥

2008-11-02T13:46:00.006+08:00

Few more days and it will be my birthday ~!!
..still have to list down my birthday wishes ^_^ hihi~
..see you on my Big day !!

2008-10-13T20:18:00.007+08:00

♥ Floyd said...

I love you. I love every little thing about you. I love your cute smile, your magical eyes, and the sound of your voice. I love your gentle touch, and I love the warmth I feel when I’m by your side. I can't stop thinking about you when we are apart. I need you by my side. You complete me. You mean the world to me. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. You are the one I've always wished for. I never thought that I would ever meet someone as special as you. I love each and every moment I share with you.

October 13, 2008 11:52 AM

* this is the best comment i`ve ever received from him..

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2008-10-12T09:22:00.007+08:00

it's been a week since i last wrote here..

so, let me start here:

the very day that i thought it was over
was the very day i asked him to stay also.
i left messages in his Messenger, apologizing for
what has been said and done.

when we get hurt, we tend to hurt also the person we love,
because of our stupid pride, our jealousy, our selfishness.

i wasn't hoping to get him back because i was the one
who ended it that night.

it was in the afternoon of October 5 that we had the chance to talk,
to settle things and to keep what we still have inside.
it was the happiest Afternoon of my Life.. `coz i won him back to me !

October ** (sekwet~ hihihi)

Our 3rd Monthsary..
we've just greeted each other on that day..
he was in the office when i texted him,
i was at home resting `coz i'm not feeling well.
i waited for him to go online so i can greet him in-game.
but, it was kinda late when we saw each other (in-game)..
I MISSED HIM SO MUCH and SO HAPPY to be with him on our special day ^_^

i love him so much and i can`t afford to lose him again.
i may not be perfect for him,
i may not meet some of his expectations,
i may not give him all his needs,
but one thing for sure,
i love him with all my heart and my soul.

Message for the only one I love: In a short span of time that we've been together, we've already been through alot and i am so thankful that i still have you in my life. You're the only reason why I fight back in the battle of life, my strength when I`m falling down, my peace when I`m troubled, and my Life when I feel like giving up. I promise to love you, wait for you and keep you `til my last breath.. Thank you for the promises and the dreams we've shared.. I will always cherish every moment I have with you.. I hope and pray that you`ll never let go, that we keep fighting and holding on.. You are my Only Love, my happiness, and my Prince in every fairy tale. I will keep you for the rest of my Life ~

2008-10-05T09:01:00.003+08:00

..this is the only place where i can write everything i have inside, the only place where i can keep dreaming and holding on..

October 5 ( Morning )
i woke up crying, thinking of things that had happened last night
. ... it was all gone ...
i admit to myself that i have been stubborn, childish,
and i know that i've hurted him too.. and i apologize for that..
as i went out of the room, i switched on my computer and searched for the song " Unsaid " and " You First Believe " .. the only memory that i could keep.

unfortunately, i had a big fight with someone in our house. na-apektuhan ata sa song na na-search ko sa net. sabi nia Stop ko daw ung song, wag ko daw cia paringgan ng mga ganung songs.. kundi ako titigil, pappunathin na daw nia talaga ako sa Caloocan =(
umagang-umaga nagsisigawan kami .. lam mo un?
parang wala na pumapasok sa utak ko.. parang all you could wish for eh sana maglaho nlng ako na parang bula.. hirap na ako..

was it really all my fault why i am suffering?
was it really all my fault why i am losing people i love?
am i really worthless?
can all my tears wash away all these pain i have inside?
can God still hear me? and knows what i am going through?
can God hear me crying? can He touch my heart?
can He protect me? can He defend me?

* i am crying all my misery * x_x

2008-10-05T00:58:00.003+08:00

.. can anybody tell me how a perfect love went wrong .. can anybody heal my heart and mend my broken soul .. if there's someone who can count my tears and all my sorrows .. oh please make him come back home..

october 4, 2008 ( 9:50 a.m)
i visited my OB (doctor)..as expected, I'm not in good condition and under observation =(
i was asked to undergo several tests by the end of this month..

October 4 ( night )
i told him about the check up..he told me not to worry and to think positively..
all day, i have been thinking about my condition..(being too pessimistic) haizz,,
after ng usap namin, i regained strength.
it's like i have all the reason to get well kc lam ko nanjan cia for me..
we played RO the whole night, nkka-miss cia kasama,,lam mo un? kht araw araw kasama, kausap at katabi ko cia sa RO but still feeling mo miss mo pa dn cia ~ sarap nun ^_^
there were dull moments pero mas masarap icpn ung lambingan namin..ung kiss nia, ung mga pagsabi nia ng "ingat ka", "love you", " mahal na mahal kita"..sarap un ulet ^^,

october 5, 2008 1:14 a.m. - guild arena in forgottenRO unforgettable place and time..
di ko na alam panu nagsimula ung big fight.. yaw ko na din icpin..
.. it just ends now =( ..
ang hirap sabihin na " mag let go na" when deep within you alam mong mahal mo pa..
pero mas mahirap maramdaman ung alam mong di na cia masaya..
ung feeling na alam mong hirap na din cia pkisamahan ka.. sakit nun =(
.. ngayn, pakiramdam ko
walang ng halaga kung anu man mangyari sa akin bukas o sa mga darating pang araw..
parang wala na ako reason para maniwala na " i will still get well"..

he's my only only reason why i fight back,
my only reason why i'm not losing hope,
my strength whenever i have problems at home..

now that everything's gone...

tell me how can i move on?
help me when and where to start..
tell how to stop dreaming..
tell me how to stop believing and holding on..

help me to stop these tears from falling..
and my heart from breaking...

help me please...oh please...

-x-x-x-sakit -x-x-x-

♥ Not so happy post..♥

2008-10-03T21:42:00.003+08:00

October~

haizz..di naging maganda pasok ng buwan na to sakin.. :(
Last week pa lng ng September sobrang dami ng nangyari until October 1.

Most of us have fears, ung tipong nangyari na dati at nasaktan ka na ng sobra at ayaw mo na mangyari ulet..pero sa oras na to eh nangyayari ulet (x_x) ang gulo..

There was once a time that I fell in love with someone. We lasted for 3 years, we fought against the odds, kala ko cia na ung knight-in-shining-armor ko who will save me from the wicked witch kea lng...nung nakilala na nia ang Wicked witch at sinabihan cia na tigilan na ako at layuan na ako :( ayun he let go of me.. I cried, it was so painful, I was holding on until the day he said goodbye.. I never let go.. Every night I pray, sana bumalik cia at save nia ako..but it never happened...he was gone :(

Years have passed before I met someone..Someone special, loving, caring, tampuhin at sobrang seloso..(x_x) we've been friends at the start until we realized that there's magic between our relationship..
Merong fears..fear na baka mangyari ulet ung nangyari dati, fear of losing him..pero there were assurances that we'll never let go. Ang sarap ng feeling kapag alam mo na may isang taong nandjan para sau, giving you strength, promises, telling you that you're his life..
Honest, I started holding on again..I started hoping, thinking that this time it's for real.

Until...he met the wicked witch :(

That night, I cried, I almost end my life.. FEARS.. PAIN..

I stopped hoping, all my dreams were shattered into pieces.. di na ako umasa na kakausapin pa ulet ako ng taong mahal ko :(
I was waiting for his text, waiting for him to say goodbye.. waiting for him to let go..
Until he called, and told me that he won't let go of me and that he loves me so much..that was when i burst into tears..

*Now, as i was writing this post.. I'm still in tears.. tears of both joy and pain..

if only wishes could come true..I'd wish to spend my life with you for the rest of my Life..
.. if only there's a happy ever after i'll chose you to be my prince in every fairy tale..

There will be no other you..

- xxx -

♥ Accomplished .. ♥

2008-09-27T22:53:00.004+08:00

i've been editing my blog for 3 days now..
search.. upload ... download...
quite a tough job huh (x_x)
well, after those rough days..
i feel so accomplished..hihihi~

to my friends who visited..thank you.

to my inspiration and my only love.. thank you for bearing with me,
for your unconditional love, for your support and for always being there for me..

as my heart always say " i love you 'til my last breathe "

♥ You are my life ♥

2008-09-27T10:12:00.003+08:00

"You should know wherever I go,
You're always in my mind, my heart and my soul.."

Sometimes I feel like giving up, quitting, letting go.
There has been sleepless night, with pain in our hearts.
Hoping and praying that tomorrow everything will fine again.

As we go through in this battle, promise me to keep holding on,
pick me up whenever I fall, keep me safe in your arms and love me
with all your heart and soul as I am loving you.

You are my Life, my love and my everything and I will love you
`til my last breathe.

I wonder ..

2008-09-25T23:48:00.001+08:00

I Wonder..

I wonder if you look back and wonder where I am
I wonder if you think of me and remember all our plans
I wonder if your days seem to pass without a smile
I wonder if you feel that without me life's worth while
I wonder if your dreams are filled with memories
I wonder if your thoughts keep drifting off to me
I wonder if you smile when someone says my name
I wonder if you wish that our love could be the same
I wonder if you're sad when you turn out the light
I wonder if you feel like we weren't worth a fight
I wonder if you wish that she was really me
I wonder if you cling to my distant memory
I wonder if you feel like I wasn't worth the wait
I wonder if I reach out for you, would you say it is too late
I wonder if one day we can bare our souls
And tell each other truths that we both deserve to know
I wonder if you feel each kiss I blow your way
I wonder if you're blessed by the prayers I kneel to pray
I wonder if we'll meet and still see it in our eyes
I wonder if you'll see the truth beyond the lies
I wonder if you'll know that no matter what I say
that I still hold on to you and me, and it will always be that way

♥ My very first post ♥

2008-09-25T19:29:00.000+08:00

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